Every time a new year comes, I have this weird feeling when writing down the last 2 or 4 digits of the date. Like something having been there for so long (365 or sometimes 366 days) suddenly goes missing. Or like something that you've been holding dear leaves you without a sign. Well, perhaps it's overly dramatic but falls somewhere along that line - a slight version of grief, I'd say. Though the same thing happens year after year, it never fails to remind me of the extreme moments to be missed for the past 12 months. Here comes the top 10 unforgettable moments of 2009:
01.01.09 - MapleSEA
It was my very first New Year Eve wholly spent on a (supposedly) kids' online game with a little friend who is 6 years younger than me. Don't jump to conclusion that it was boring. Stupid things done and funny screenshots taken surprisingly became something I recall about the long lost companion. Hanhan, if you read this, thank you for keeping me accompanied and cheerful during your school holiday.
Mood: 
Chinese New Year 09 - Bugis, Singapore
For the first time in my 19 years of life, I unexpectedly had to study like mad for exam throughout CNY and of course, going home to celebrate with my family was impossible. Many think that it must have been lonely and boring for me, but not really. In fact, I enjoyed the Chinese way of celebration as well as the quietness needed for studying. On NY Eve, Renee asked me to come over for family gathering dinner - the last one with all members together. Well, it was a huge shock when Uncle unexpectedly passed away later in 2009. I still can recall how he talked to us during and after the meal, then on the way to the temple and back, all of which made a pleasant yet very sad memory to be missed.
Mood: 
01.04.09 - AuditionSEA
Yay, April Fools' Day! What so 'yay' anyway. Not planning to trick anyone or getting tricked, I was freaking bored when I decided to join my Audition 'family' - another (supposedly) kids' game (OMG I'm so lame!) - in a club dance room. I was unexpectedly intrigued when a weird dude appeared out of nowhere in his virtual black undies (sexy or what?). And with the natural chemistry between a Scorpio and a Pisces born in the same year of Horse (I guess?), we clicked well without effort. Conversation flowed and on the day of lies, my intuition told me I could simply trust this person, whom at that point of time wasn't recognized as my prince charming yet. I followed it and I haven't regretted.
Mood: 
30.04.09 - Bugis McDonald's, Singapore
He called me and we met up for the very first time, prior to which he'd known nuts about my profile whereas I'd already facebook-ed for his. Cheat One™ rocks! Trying hard to focus and be myself without going overboard in friendliness, I managed to keep my cool for one hour of seeing him (didn't I?). And right when we reached his workplace (yes, he's been a work person since the day one), he surprised me with a kiss on forehead - all that needed to break down any reluctance left in my heart (cheesy, I know).
Mood: 
May 09 - Yewtee, Singapore
It was another one of those first times for myself and our relationship. Different from any previous encounter, I'd never felt such a need to break all rules and let myself go with the moment. Perhaps, it was the marvelous chemistry between us, so strong I found it hard to resist, though the time we'd been together was not considered long by many. Once again, I followed my intuition, I trusted, and again no regrets. It was damn good and it has only been better, honestly.
Mood: 
22.10.09 - Hanoi, Vietnam
People say when you're in love, you're willing to do all sort of crazy nonsense things for each other. Giving up my long hair is NOT one. Okay, I shall be frank here. He likes short hair so I got it cut. So what? I know girls, you may hesitate a bit or hell lot, and guys, you may stick with the thing for silky long hair forever. But I don't give a damn because I'm happy with the outcome of the decision, ok? Besides, it wasn't spontaneous. Fact is, I'd been standing in front of the mirror every morning and trying to picture myself with short hair for don't-know-how-long before the execution day (this is a freshly revealed fact, lol).
Mood: 
25.10.09 - Yours truly's heart
I still remember vividly how it felt like hugging him after a week holiday that seemed like a few months, how eager I was to open the sweetly wrapped box with a center-of-attention gift inside, how my heart melted upon seeing the 'Little Miss Pussy' book he'd hand-drawn for me despite serious lack of sleep, how we talked, joked and enjoyed our dinner at Swensen's, how he shook my little world with a 'glorious' moment on the bar's stage, how desperate, how fulfilling, how perfect. He totally made me fall in love with him again - even harder and deeper.
Mood: 
26.11.09 - Recycle bin
It was sad. For a short while, I felt betrayed by something within myself, but later decided to forgive because it had prepared me emotionally for the event and was still right about the choice. For once, my point of view towards an issue changed - I realized that some people deserve a second chance even after, well, such a mistake. Anyway, I've tried to stick with my words on the recovery, really. Though it hasn't been a really good job, things have been strengthened, sometimes the hard way. Still, no storms disappear without major or minor damages. For the near future, hopefully my MSO result won't turn out to be a disappointment.
Mood: 
13.12.09 - Jln Bukit Merah, Singapore
About one month since I heard about the ex-owners' intention to ask for the room back, I was finally moving in the new place, more pleasure that comes with extra rent. But it's worth it. At least, it feels more like living a life instead of simply locking myself in a tiny box. And there was no agency involved. Google always helps. Also, never forget you have your brain to analyze, hands to type, feet to travel, eyes to observe, ears to listen, tongue to talk, honesty to start with, attitude to win as well as luck to make a quick quality decision. See, be flexible and a little bit risky, it may save you a lot. Oh and on top of that, I have a Popeye boyfriend who loves me enough to help with freaking heavy boxes of books and many other rubbish despite flu, fever and the presence of my very strict parents, making me feel deeply touched and heart-broken at the same time (oh, dear...).
Mood: 
25.12.09 - Yours truly's heart
When year end was drawing near, there came another occasion for us to express our love for the significant other. Within the narrow time frame, my Santa Claus proved that magic can happen anytime anywhere with or without expectation. It's just a matter of how much you think for someone and his or her true happiness. Trust me, you'll be rewarded one way or another. Sometimes you know, certain things would come if you expected the least. And if you realized there was a twist in the story, it'd become a sweet surprise to be remembered.
Mood: 
'The memories go where we go, they're like a suitcase that you never lose'. I'm glad that there have been more smiles than tears to be stored in my 2009 suitcase and hope to carry more happiness in 2010. Of course, rainy days play an inevitable part in life and help people appreciate the value of the littlest sunshine. Let's just hope they won't often turn into storms that leave unrepairable damages in our souls. Let's hope for lots of sunshine to make up for the rain that has been pouring on us since the beginning of the year. Let's stay strong, be healthy and stick with our resolutions. All of us.
P.S. I've finally finished this entry after a week typing bit by bit depending on mood. Think I should add 'blog more often' to my resolution list. ♥
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