Rainy Saturday. I wonder.

7 a.m. Saturday morning. The irritating and noisy alarm again destroyed one of my sweetest dreams. Even though I really really wished to complete the happy ending of my fairy tale, I had to push the warm blanket on one side and sit straight up before the extreme sleepiness took over my determination. Some more it was cloudy and super windy, just perfect for a lazy Saturday, wrapping myself in blanket and enjoy what they call "sleeping".

"Uh... How about staying in bed for another two hours?".
"No. A BIG NO."
"Blah blah blah..."
"#$%&*&^%$!..."

Well, after a little fight between myself and me, I finally decided to step on the ground (uh... actually on the slippers) and started my day with a cold shower. Yeah, the fact is, no hot water for a cold morning.

I wondered why I'd never got sick. Even a running nose also NO?

...

Quickly preparing everything, I grabbed my key and rushed out of the house. Simple and decent, I enjoyed the pure morning breeze with every step I took, literally. Favorite music. Peaceful and quiet scene. Friendly looks and smiles from people. Everything was running so smoothly until I reached National Library, and realized at once that the study lounge was full, unfortunately.

"It's ok. Quite predictable. Just shift to plan B, go to MDIS study room instead."

I wondered why many people can actually get up so early on Saturday morning to grab the seats in National Library's lounge. Are they like that every week or just for exam (like me)?

...

Reaching school. A guy passing by was staring at me. I stared back and slightly smiled for no reason. It was quite empty, totally different from the noisy MDIS that I know on week days. I don't know if it was due to weather, but I couldn't concentrate at all. My note seemed like longer and more complicated than usual. Once in a while, I just gave up and walked out, leaning over the banister, singing softly and watching everything in my sight.

I wondered why suddenly I was so interested in the red slogan hanging on block D.


I wondered why I suddenly disliked the scene of three blue buildings standing high under the gray sky.


I wondered why the scene of a church roof hanging over the bright horizon suddenly attracted me so much.


...

Evening. On my way home, I dropped by Fair Price to do grocery. This time, I received some doubtful looks from people, especially old aunties.

"Why the hell is a little girl buying all those stuff?"

I could see the question clearly indicated on their face. Girls like me are not supposed to buy food to cook and eat? When I stay on my own, well, I have to do what parents used to do for me at home. It's good indeed. Good for me.

Talking about parents, they'd previously asked me why I never told them about the burn on my leg. I knew how surprised they were when I accidentally talked about the scar.

"At home, even when it was a little cut, you also screamed until the whole world knew about that.
Now why don't you tell us about such a severe burn?"
"Not that severe, Dad. It's ok, see, it's scarred already."
"..."
"By the way, I cannot find an elastic band that is big enough to cover the whole scar. Never mind, I'll just leave it like that. Hehe..."
"..."

I wondered why Dad never spoke out what he had in mind at that moment, why he kept silent and sighed. Did he know that I was actually acting strong and happy not to worry him and Mom?


Well, I think I should head to bed early. Last night I found it so difficult to sleep. Maybe I'm too used to staying up late. Never mind, everything can be settled. Try hard, Hailey. Monday is coming near.

I wonder...