Trust.

So I've finally forced myself to proceed with all necessary steps to clarify certain things as well as to clear my confused mind (sounds like I was a dirty-minded girl, ahahahahas...). Anyway, I'm not self-righteous in this case. Trust is something so precious and fragile. Not like money, you spend, you can somehow earn back. Trust, no matter how much effort you've put into building it up, one shot is all that takes to blow everything away. Like a few days ago, for the first time in my 3 years in Singapore, my parents caught me bluffing that I couldn't log in Skype, when actually I was at someone else's house. Consequently, they linked this incident back to all the previous uncountable times when the similar excuses were used - and I, well, understand their trust for me will no longer be the same. I don't expect magic to happen, either, just have to do everything on my part to satisfy their doubts. Similarly, when someone has once used all sorts of stories to keep me from the truth, that person probably can't blame me for questioning the validity of any explanation, especially when they do not complement what I've seen, heard and felt. If you'd been betrayed before, you'd know how painful and stickily unforgettable it is. Naturally, to stand upon my dignity, it's not wise to risk my trust again, right? Gotta move forwards. Well, perhaps time will prove something, but until then, move move.

Easier said than done. I'm a soft-hearted girl, still. Need you, my friends, more than ever to pull me out from the trap of thoughts. Falling into it is too depressing for me to handle, like your life had been revolved around someone so close and he suddenly disappeared. Ouch. Sigh, why am I being like this again? No, no...

Move Hailey move. Promise I'll think less and smile more with your support. ♥