Insomnia.

I seldom encounter insomnia. But tonight I neither feel like sleeping nor force myself to sleep. Perhaps once in a while, it's better to spend time thinking deeply in silence like this. There's nothing much on my mind though, just wandering thoughts of sparkling events and people. Well, everybody's changing. Friends, acquaintances and strangers. Not only skin-deep but also internally. As a result, I ain't feeling the same for certain people. No more.

There has been a time when I put in so much effort to place things back to their supposed-to-be positions, simply believing a string plaited thoroughly cannot be cut so easily. In fact, it can. And when it happens, I won't do anything but let go to conserve a girl's pride. It's then hard to rewind, and there goes the word 'memory', which is sometimes worth keeping and occasionally not.

Well, you would say shake it off and simplify your life, girl. But isn't it what I always force myself to do? It's always easier said than done. From deep inside, I know the flame of hope still endures despite prolonged coldness. Unconsciously, I'm still believing and waiting for a return.

... Sigh...

[Photo: Kenji Sakano]

So many quiet walks to take

So many dreams to wake

And there's so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time

Maybe all we need is time...

- 'It might be You' by Kai -

Uhm, when the sun rises, it'll be a new day. Gary's going to school after his exhausting working hours. And I'll be sleeping. So I'd better consider myself very fortunate and stay happy, right? Silly me. I wish you, Gary and those whom I hold dear inspirations of strength and happiness.

Good morning.