Runaway.

And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize?

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

Yeah.
I've always been trying to be merciful and cheerful. For you.
I've always been trying to be strong and mature. For you.
Yet you merely take me for granted.
And I can't just grin and bear it forever.
It was you yourself who have drained the love for you off my heart.
So please, don't keep asking me to say I Love You.
Even though I forced myself to utter those three words to comfort you,
I just couldn't. I guess you know why.

But. Yeah but. I didn't have the heart to just leave you with your chaos like that.
Perhaps I'll try to give you support through this harsh time.
That's what you really need, I know.

Afterward? I just wanna fall, let it go, forget, and run away.
I won't hate you and your sincerity.
Merely a runaway...

It hurts like hell.

@ Kenji & WinD: Thanks for your at-the-right-time concern. Your sensitivity and understanding mean a lot to me. I consider myself very lucky having friends like you. :)

Kenji, sorry I was so helpless seeing you so hurt yet couldn't do anything other than comforting. But I have a strong feeling that you will receive what you desire and deserve soon, really soon.

WinD, sorry for disturbing you for so long. It was really nice talking to you, after which I felt much more relieved. Remember I'm always ready whenever you need me, ok?

-From a kid who's gonna be 18-