Exhausted.

I'm in such an awful mental and physical state at the moment.

As a result of super irregular eating and sleeping, my body's become so weak and painful that I can hardly do anything properly. Even doing my lab report also makes me feel dizzy. Sigh. I should learn to respect my body and treasure my health better. After all, it's the best property that I've ever had, right?

Besides, I have to admit that I'm kinda worry about lots of stuff these few days. All the little things just accumulate in my little brain and eventually torture it. I'm not that type of readily sharing with people though; actually I'm also not really good at telling my own stuff. So well, I'd rather keep it to myself, and continue my role in life as a professional listener. Funny huh?

The one that I expect to be with me in right here right now doesn't even show up. He just asked me for the sake of asking, I guess, didn't put his mind nor heart into it. Sometimes I wonder why he's so ignorant and insensitive. Even my guy friends are way too better. I don't wanna compare him to anyone but the fact is I'm feeling more and more insecure every time he fails to catch me as I fall, or simply need to lean on someone. Yet he keeps saying 'Don't worry... I'm always here for you no matter what'. Lol, hopefully those are not merely words.

Hate. Sick. Tired. Missing my missing piece.