The only one.

Was I the only one by Jordin Sparks


When you told me that I was a star in the sky
Baby, I believed every word
And you seemed so sincere, it was perfectly clear

'Cause forever was all I heard (yes, forever)

And every little kiss from your tender lips

Couldn't have been a lie (how could it?)

I fell heart over head without a safety net

I don't understand this goodbye (nor myself)

Was I the only one who fell in love?

There never really was the two of us?

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

Was I the only one, only one in love?

As I walk down the hall, I see the place on the wall

Where the pictures of us used to be (empty)

I fight back these tears 'cause I still feel you here (I can't)

How could you walk out so easily? (don't you?)

And I don't understand how I can feel this pain

And still be alive (just have to)

And all these broken dreams and all these memories

Are killing me inside (ouch...)

Was I the only one who fell in love?

There never really was the two of us?

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

Was I the only one, only one

Tell me what I'm supposed to do with all this love (can't displace it)

Baby, it was supposed to be the two of us

Help me 'cause I still don't want to believe (please... SOS)

I was the only one, I was the only one

I was the only who fell in love

There never really was the two of us

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

I was the only one, only one

I was the only who fell in love

There never really was the two of us

Maybe my all just wasn't good enough

Was I the only one, only one in love, oh

When you told me that I was a star in the sky

Baby, I believed every word (sigh...)

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Saturday 1 am. Went out to drink and dance with Steph and Jason when feeling frustrated with parents and fucking rebellious. Let the music and joys of other people sweep the sadness away for a while. Felt really blessed for all the warm company and drinks and champagne. Just when I thought everything was fine, a talk about bar servers blew it all away. Think I did something real crazy. But who gave a damn when I was almost drunk.

Saturday 3 pm. Dressed up and prepared to head to town in a good mood. Met Enrique for a while when he was shooting for Starhub Urban Freestyle at the skate park, wondering how all the dudes there managed to be so freaking muscular and flexible, AND put up with the pain and annoying heat for hours.

Anyway, walked back to Cineleisure to meet Casandra and the PPF gang. Watched a Japanese movie at E2Max which somehow resembled '20th Century Boys'. After the session, we decided on where to eat and ended up in KFC, followed by a walk to jCube (previously known as PCBunk). I was supposed to have fun but why I felt extra uneasy all the way...

Cineleisure. KFC. Family dinner.

20th Century Boys.

PCBunk.

Smiles. Can't understand why I was allowing myself to be so melodramatic. Perhaps it was me and only me. No matter how I strive for strength and freedom from unexpected thoughts, it's probably not the time to break free yet. Who asked me to be romantic and devoted, right? Fuck that. I know I shouldn't have heard certain things then confused myself. I wanna believe in something good but the cruel facts do not allow. True enough, I'm not determined to move on. Yet.

Was I the only one in ♥?